Sometimes I really wish I could pick up my phone and call you but then I remember you havent been apart of my life for about 10 years. I have so much pain and hurt built up inside me. It honestly sucks to not have you in my life anymore grandpa when I know your still here to talk to but just choose not to be in my familys life anymore. I wish you have seen everything ive accomplished how I grew up but you didnt. I have so much resentment built up because of you. I cant help but cry when i think about you anymore grandpa.